haven't wrote in a while..wow..

okay, so i was on facebook, and i've noticed that a few people think i'm pro-ana..just to clear things up, i'm not..
i have had ana for 18 months, and mia for almost 6 months, and i would not advertise ED's to anybody..i'll support anybody who wants support, and i'll help people out with questions about ED's etc, but i want to make it clear that i won't promote ED's as a good thing, they are a part of me and my life, and i find it much easier talking to other ED sufferers who know and understand what i'm going through, and the struggles it will take to fully recover.

Jessii Jinx <33

ABC Day 8

Today was another school day, so I didn't feel the need to be tempted by food..

So far i've consumed:

1x shredded wheat (76kcal) <= seem to have one of these like everyday XD
1x bag worchester sauce crisps (130kcal)

MY MUM MADE ME EAT PIZZA :O

but instead of arguing, I ate a slice then purged it up (not nice at ALL :/)

Right, i'm going to start a sort of weight loss diary..i'll write my weight down and how much i've gained/lost and my next goal, and if i've achieved them.

I currently weigh 7st 2lbs..
At the start of the ABC Diet I weighed 7st 5lbs..
I lost 4 1/4lbs but put on 1 1/4 so I just count the weight loss as 3lbs..

Tell me what you think?

JessiiJinx <33

ABC Day 7

Today I had:

2x shredded wheat (153kcal)
1x bag worchester sauce crisps (135kcal)
2x mini oreos (20kcal)

Not great but not too bad..

Primark opened in Chester yesterday so I visited and bought some clothes:

1x bodycon black dress with peach lace sweetheart neckline (love it ^^)
1x silver dress with black spots, black bow and heart cut out of the back (love ^^)
1x white dress with navy bird print (woop birds :D)
1x grey and white stipy long top/dress LoL

I still feel extremely uncomfortable wearing them though, so once i've lost weight, I can't wait to wear them..
I also found a really cute grey top with sorta pop art Hello Kitty's on the front (HK = <3 ^^) so I wanna get it sooo badly..

JessiiJinx <33

ABC Day 6

Right, so today I had 2x shredded wheat (153kcal) for breakfast, and 8 fries (100kcal) for dinner. Not too bad considering I had an RE exam and all I could think about all through it was FOOD..but I resisted exept the few chips..

Jessii Jinx

ABC Day 5

Okay, so after yesterday's binge of skittles, I had a fasting day, so didn't consume any kcals at all, so hopefully I can still shift the pounds beofre Prom :)

Jessii Jinx <33

ABC Day 4

Eugh. I managed to stay under 200kcal all day, but my family took me out to watch Iron Man 2 at the cinema and I had a whole bag of skittles and couldn't even purge them up :/
So I failed this day tbh..

Jessii Jinx <33

Day 3 ABC Diet (300kcal)

Okay, So Day 3 ABC has gone better than planned. My grandparents came over today with loads of sweets, cakes, biscuits etc for me and my younger brother, and I RESISTED! i'm soo happy :)
I ended up eating 1x minature oreo at not even 10kcal! (the ones in the tubs LoL)
For breakfast I had 1x shredded wheat (no milk) at 76.5kcal, and a small low fat homemade latte at 46kcal, so in total that makes 132.5 kcal!
i still have 67.5kcal left to use up, so i might have a small green apple at 45kcal, and two more minature oreos at 20kcal, or the apple and a small jello at 10kcal :)

JessiiJinx <3

Day 2 of ABC (Ana Boot Camp) Diet

Okay, so Day 1 completed, i got ready for Day 2 (500kcal or less). I started off brilliantly, only consuming 1x shredded wheat, no milk at 76.5kcal. I burned off around 300kcal in PE, and still resisted the kcals at dinner.
As soon as I returned home from school however, my mom forced me to eat some chilli pasta :/
I ate it, then purged it up, with the help of a few tips from an Ana facebook friend :)
So even though the pasta was high kcal, i purged it all up, so i still managed to stay under my goal of 500kcal or less.
Jessii Jinx <33

Day 1 of ABC (Ana Boot Camp) Diet

Today i've started a diet which is kinda new to me called the ABC Diet, which involves following a 50 day calorie restriction day with fasting days inbetween.
Day 1 is a 500kcal (or less)day.

So far i've had:

Breakfast - 1x shredded wheat, 75.5kcal

School break - just under 1/2 penguin chocolate bar, 60kcal

Lunch - water, 0kcal

Dinner - 2x crumpets 196kcal (tbh i wouldn't have had them, but my mum made me eat summat)

Pudding - 1x maryland cookie, 54kcal (again, my mum wanted me to eat this :/)

Total - 429kcal :/

So, i was told to eat by my mum, (usually i skip dinner as i'm out with friends) to eat, or she'd make me go back to recover :/
but at least i stayed under 500kcal :)

Jessii Jinx <33

Ana and Mia.

I feel that Ana and Mia are fighting over who can be the best friend to me.
I've been Ana for almost 18 months, but since New Year, Mia and I have had a wonderful friendship, making Ana jealous. Now i can't just starve or purge, I have to do both. I don't know who is my best friend now, it's so confusing. I need a new friend, recovery. I don't want to get better, but if i start to recover, maybe Ana and Mia will settle their differences and stop fighting over me. I still want to be skinny, and wil do anything to achieve it, I just need to know that i'm not alone, that Ana or Mia will help me through the journey to become thin.
Jessii Jinx <3

Wants to be Mary-Kate, Perfect weight 88, She's never good enough..

Woahh..i haven't wrote for ages :/
Well my parents had been harping on at me to gain weight, threatening me with a visit to the doctors..
I gained sooooo much weight over Christmas, New Year etc, so i guess I felt embarrassed to write how i've been doing, since it's not been good at all.

I've just found out i've got the college course I wanted (Modelling + Promotions), so it's an excuse for me to lose even more weight :)
My mum absolutely hates the fact i'm starting the course this September, she thinks i'm going to become seriously ill from losing weight :/

I have yet another school concert (two weeks time) so i'm singing Use Somebody - Paramore version, Don't Stop Believeing - Glee version, and i'm also part of a dance to Thriller - Micheal Jackson...should be fun :)

I've nearly finished making my dress, and it fits, but i want to lose even more weight so that it can be taken in even more, making me look skinnier to everyone else :] It looks soooo awesome at the moment :D

I'm back now anyway, so i'll be writing more posts for sure :)

JessiiJinx <33